Restless day.

Somehow things are not turning out to be the way i expect it to be. I'm suppose to the supportive one. The one that gives the strength, the one that lifts the spirit of others, the one that motivates people. But as time passes by, I feel weaker and weaker by the moment. I feel drained, like i'm alone. No one to talk to, no one to cry to, no one to express to, no one, nothing! I feel lonely and not that spacious every since last time. Compared 5 years ago and now, I don't feel that optimistic, happy, glad and everything. Although I tend to appreciate more on my surroundings and what i'm doing at the moment, but im still alone at the end. YESH! I admit that i'm craving for someone to share things with, to express to, to lend a shoulder to, and just to be with. FUck! i admit, i need a boyfriend. There... happy?!