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I feel like crying, my precious belongings is missing!!!
one minute is in front of me, one minute is missing?
and is at home, what the heck!!!!!

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*tears flow~~~~~~

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Freakin' teacher loose my peka and now wants me to re-do it. mothe du-du-du-du-du-du-du-du-du-du-du shit la way. Is is shit you know! bang sai! da bian! DAMN!









You know nowaday people complaining about teenagers being careless and wreckless in what ever they do but see, this motherfucking teacher loose my peka and put the blame on me. Nevermind the i-need-to-do-it-again incident but putting the blame on me???? Splurting the words I DON'T CARE in front of me is serious read between my fingers reaction. That is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IRRESponsible. That's my SPM determination results points. And you actually LOOSE IT??? HOW COULD YOU!!! BE MORE SYSTEMATIC!! Even a baby could do better then you. Fuck! Damn it!!!

haiz...... feeling crappy right now.

Having physics and biology tomorrow.... and i'm still blogging.. WTH????
Got tips from other school but i don't think is enough...

HAHAHAHAHAHAH, celes n looi enduring my mental torture... hmmmm
Gonna do physical torture this saturday....

gtg.... have to sharpen my 'utensils'.. yum yum..

la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la...............................

SMACK!



awwwwwwwww~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


weh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sniff*


la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la *skipping to god-knows-where-she-is-skipping*


kiddo. GET OUTTA HERE!!!!

GAH!!!!!!!!

I think i have to bring my own fan to my classroom. It is damn hot in there. Usually when we're done, we sleep during the leftover time right? As usual, i did that today, well actually not only today but everyday =P, i was actually sweating and sleeping at the same time. I can actually feel my face covered up in sweat and dripping from my eyes to my nose. This time even the thinnest girl in my class actually complain hot. (Which i'm happy to hear bcoz is not my fattiness that cause it)..... aheheheheheh... ANYway........

We had to go for sport practice which wasn't neccesary for us because we go there all we did was marching and dancing. We can do that in school, why the heck waser 2 bucks to 'travel' all the way there? I was starving because of that 2 bucks... Grrrrrrrr

Was waiting for mum after that and then out of no where lightning, thunder, and rain came pouring down. I was sitting on the astaka then the rain started slaping on my face and wind was blowing towards my direction making my body shape visible.... *perasan.. I was soaking wet but the thing is i'm not mad or angry, actually i was kinda enjoying the 'soaking' moment. It kinda makes me relax and the tense in my vibes was actually loosing out. COOL!!!!! Can't wait for the next session!!!!

Came back from the field, bath and slump on my bed for 2 hours of nap before my maths tuition. A lot was on my mind when i was sleeping and i only could remember a few. Something to do with my sports settlement, revision and log books. Is beginning to haunt me i guess..... My mind was literally like this....

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Modem Cacat......... T.T

Ok, first thing first, SORRY guys i haven't post anything lately as my modem was 'electricuted' during the heavy storm a couple days ago. So.... gomenasai!

Second, I'm having intervensi at the moment so DARN! I thought the Ministry has decided to cut off this system as students don't learn much and teachers are not able to cover up all the syllubus but SEEEEE!!!!!!!! Here i am sitting for the bloody intervensi. And you know what's the worst part? My bloody form teacher being fussy about my class tidiness and was willing to start late then seeing the class messy.She wants the info so badly OK LA!! I BRING IT TOMORROW I STUFF IN YOUR MOUTH, I MIGHT EVEN TAKE OFF MY THREE TWO WEEKS NON CLEANING SHOES AND STUFF IT IN YOUR MOUTH. See how the heck you're gonna babble on. I'm telling you, if i fail my SPM, she's the first one i'm coming after. DIU!

Third, I have to be in charge of my sport house activities and although we have a leader in every section, the leader is SHITTY! The dancing section couldn't make up her bloody mind on what music to use, the marching section have no idea what the heck she's up to, and i have no time to start on the mascot seeing all the time taken off by exams and extra co-curiculum activites. And today, all sections leaders was suppose to sta back for practice and to help out. Ended up only the marching leader and myself stayed back. And i have finish off what the dancing leader started. Like what the chinese say,' Ma Pi Gu!!' Wipe his buttock!!!!

Fourth, so far my three months project is going on well and i hope my log books are too. met a few new cbners and recently only found out that pui ling and celestine are a crazy bunch. Don't let their quiet and innocent outlook decieve you, they are actually wild and crazy..... in a dirty minded way.... (jkjk). I introduced a poem to them the other day and mei wern ended up running out the room. It has HILARIOUS!!!!!! so guys this is it....*looking for my phone*

*BELOW CONTAINS OVER 18 MATERIAL, PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU'RE OVER 18 BEFORE PRECEEDING. THANK YOU.

Mat rempit damn guai lan
He modifies a small kenderaan
Drives his awek to see cendawan
And she will ask,'What do you want?'
'Your buah dada is so menggodakan.'
'And I don't want to be your kawan.'
'I want to be your special one.'
'And f*** you everyday like no kawalan.'
The awek has got no pilihan
She has to take off all her pakaian

And start the adult mia permainan
That is how she lost her kesucian
First time she feels a little kesakitan
And screams out loud for pertolongan
Later she ask for mau tambahan
Hopes that mat rempit will teruskan
Mat rempit says got perubahan
He goes and get a peralatan
And call all his kawan-kawan
Say this will be alot more fun.

CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEERSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Triple Threat

Everytime he wants something done, he wants it
snappy and perfect. And whenever i need something
done, he will always take his own sweet time. I'm
miserable sad to say. I get the blame when others
do something wrong. The others will get the things they
want even though they do negative stuff, as for me, i never
get what i want.

No one really knows what i'm thinking.
Now i'm gonna tell them what i'm thinking. I just found out
being bad is the only way to get what you want and being
good leads you to tears and sadness. I WANNA BE A BAD
GIRL! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHAT IS HAPPENING
IN THIS WORLD AND I ONLY CARE FOR MYSELF!!!
SO FUCK OFF!!!! I WANT MY OWN LIFE! *sobs~~~~

This shows is so hard to find happiness even you have
a complete family. Sometimes a broken family can be
happier then a complete one. I'm always not up to his
standard. When i do something, he wants more then
the result. When i try to impress him, i get either ignorance
or scolding instead of laughter.

I never get to talk to him. Whenever i need someone to
talk to, he is the first one that come through my mind,
but i dare not talk to him. He never listens and he never
comforts. When i fall, he scolds, he never pick me up to
dust off the dirt. Sometimes a teenage girl needs comfort
from the closest people, family and I can't get it there.

I don't blame them as they live a hard life before this,
but where else can i get comfort? where else can i get
warmth from my people? There was once where i
tried running from home. I have no where to go, i was
lost and wandering at the streets thinking what is my
next move. I want to go home but i don't feel comfortable
staying at home. All i get is anger and tears.

All i want is comfort from my people, i don't want them to
talk about surviving in life or stuff that we need debating,
i wanna talk and i just need someone to listen. To let go all
my frustrations and keep going. But so far, i'm the only one
doing that for myself. I'm sad~~~~~~~~~ pillow anyone?